Some things about my childhood

I was raised in Kennewick until I was 8, and had to endure the wraith of my mother, because my father divorced her and she was abusive to me at that age. When I was in the 4th grade, I lived in a basement of a Pasco WA, home, and had to stay locked down there alone because my mother didn't want me to interact with my family of brother and sisters. I remember sleeping to Christmas lights in my basement room, and I would also eat dinner there alone and after school be put in the basement. I eventually moved to another Pasco Washington home, this time an apartment which had cockroaches and I had to cook for myself and watched the old monster movie channel for fun. I remember being alone a lot, my family members weren't there. My mother wasn't kind and would hit me for making messes. By the time April came, I moved into my dad's Pasco home, there I felt happy, I had a good relationship with my father, he was kind and never scolded me, It was in a good neighborhood, but our house was ghetto, but I didn't care cause I was happy to be there with my father and brother most of the time. I played grid kids football, and was getting awkward fat, I couldn't control my eating and was fat, I was sad a lot from the abusive mother I had that I gained weight. When I turned 18, I started working for arby's, that's when I learned how to lose weight, I lost over 100 pounds within a year and kept it off for the next 12 years. that was 1998. I gained it all back when I had a premonition about my future, which told me that if I didn't purposely gain weight, I would die. I follow the premonition, because I felt that it was true. I could have lost all my teeth because the lack of processed sugar in my body. It's in bananas and oranges and Pepsi. which I drank and which rehydrated my fat cells and blew me up in weight. atkin's doesn't cure the body which is why I had loose skin. I'm a new soul that had to figure out a lot shit about getting shit on by people like Brad Pitt, who uses a communications device to isolate my conversations to a psychic network out there. that's about all there's more about my life like Yellowstone / Colorado year and the thievery days with Ryan Hicks where I robbed churches and an insurance company with him and repentance is what I'm about now. so that's a snippet, I'm completely lawful now, and I was down trodden by my upbringing, but I grew up now and I try to forgive and forget.